Sister

Its bhai phonta today. True I have quite a few sisters from whom I get phontas I really miss not having a sis of my own. Well to me until now I find this relation to be the most divine. Among siblings I guess the relation that works out the best is between an elder brother & a younger sis. Many agree to this. It’s a relation where I have been able to love the most & from which I have received the maximum love. My parents may feel sad from such a comment of mine but then at this age that’s what I feel. Maybe if I grow up a bit more & get a bit more mature my perceptions would change. But let’s not delve into future. Sometimes I feel unlucky; sometimes I feel the lack of somebody other than parents & good friends in my life. That is the time I really feel the need of a sister. It’s nobody’s fault that I don’t have a sister of my own. Maybe in my reincarnation I’ll have one. But I really love the ones I have. Cousins they may be, but they are really really special to me. One bade goodbye a bit too early. And the other one I get to see once in every two years almost. Rotten luck! I tried to make some sisters from my very good friends. Didn’t run into any luck there either. So I really fear ‘making’ new sisters these days. I can’t allow this relation to be hurt in any way.
To me probably this relation defines love. At a stage when I was confused at to what love really is this relation taught me a lot. And my fucking heart can love a lot. More than it is capable of!!!! Then it starts to hurt sometimes. But then I don’t care. I just love to love…..