Tuesday, September 15, 2009
where is the love?
Love fears me. It thinks I’m hatred & I’m gonna eat it up. So it never comes to me easily. And whenever it comes,it leaves even faster keeping me alone. Stranded. Alone & crying. There seems to be too much hubris in its attitude. As if I don’t deserve it at all. Fcuk man, fcuk. Yeah I know I’m not the best person on earth but not so bad that I don’t deserve it at all. People worse than me in many respects get a lot of it. Foook. And in the end it is me who is left cursing love. I ask my conscience ‘Am I a good guy?’ The answer is always a big YES. And to be frank I never pressurize my conscience to give out an affirmatory answer. I am true to my conscience. Very very true coz I don’t believe in cheating myself. Still the guy called love eludes me. Plays hide n seek with me. According to the laws of probability I should be able to catch it by now. But I keep missing it. Maths fails in these respects. I fail. I can only hope that love wins. Else this won’t be a better world to live on. I always pray that the love that never enters my life at least enters the life of all those I love. I can only hope that those people keep on smiling for the rest of their lives & remain happy. If they are happy even the absence of love in my life cant make me sad!!!!!
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Love indeed is quite elusive... i have a similar notion as yours... i like that part where u said u were true to your conscience without pressurizing it... but love doesn't seem to know much reason... often,nor do the people whom you shower your true love on... but its their vanity if they can't reciprocate,not that your love lacked intensity... And truly,the smile on our loved ones' faces is the ultimate solace... Don't ever feel sad,bro'... life's a long journey... and probability is a weird thing... often,the realization of that favourable outcome takes some time(remember Giri's Stat. classes) :D So,keep smiling,keep cursing('cause its great fun) and putting the smile on other's faces like u always do... life surely has something special in store for someone as nice as you... just wait some more...
P.S. pardon my long lecture... actually,i feel a lot that u said and couldn't but comment... anyway,keep bloggin' more regular now... bubka really expresses well... :)
extreme emotions can brng out a lot of truths of life which we never stop to think about genrally.i'm not sad.but life never ceases to amaze me at every juncture.i'v always smiled & i'll go on smiling.& more importantly keep others smiling.
anyway thanks 4 taking ur timr to post a comment!
That's the spirit,man... and its always a pleasure... :)
:-)
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